Monday, July 30, 2007
If I Told You Once,I Told You TwiceYou Can See It My EyesI'm All Cried OutWith Nothing To SayYour Everything I Want It To BeIf You Could Only SeeYour Heart Belongs To MeI Love You So MuchI'm Hurting For Your TouchCome And Set Me FreeForever Yours I'll BeBaby Won't You ComeAnd Take This Pain Away.
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It Hurts To See You Like Tat.I Wish I Could be The One Who Cheer You Up.And Bring Back Tat Beautiful Smile.
``Bonggz~
Why am i feeling the distance?
Are we drifting?
I dun wan to. >.<>
I guess i shouldnt have reacted tat way last nite.
Well im sorry.
I cant turn back time. haiz
U seem so cold,
heard u're feeling emotionless too?
I dunno wad else to say but "Sorry" .
The piercing pain,
i think im still feeling it.
Its feeling so terrible.
I cant bring myself to do anything.
Lost, confuse is how im feeling.
I wish i could have kept my cool.
Guess every couple will have a drift in a r/s.
But after the drift only 2 things happen.
Either u get closer, closer den before.
Or u'll continue the drift, Drifting even further.
I dun wanna drift any further.
Guess im still afraid to lose u. haiz
I miss u,
But i guess i really cant feel u. ='(
*unposted~*
``Bonggz~
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Friday, July 27, 2007 |
lil lil bloggie..
isnt a blog a place u say everything out?
hmmmm wanted to blog since last nite..
but kept thinking if i should blog..
LOL. guess a blog isnt as useful afterall..
But guess i'll still blog.. =))
Everyone seems to be rushing me to get a job.
I wan to work too.
My pocket is gonna be empty soon. (big fat hole)
But i guess the same thot keep appearing in my head.
A fear tat once i start working,
i might not have time to spent wif u.
A fear tat we might even drift.
A fear tat new pp or pp u once like comes into ur life.
A fear tat i might jus lose u.
Guess im not as confident as before.
Is there anything tat im lack of?
Is there anything tat i lose?
Is there anything tat i cant learn?
I used to think my the other half is not gd enuf for me.
But when it comes to u,
Why do i feel im not gd enuf?
Is it really im not gd enuf?
or is it the lack of confident?
*confident confident come back soon* >.<
Many a times i wish,
I wish i had the courage to shout it out loud,
or even whisper it into ur ears.
"Baby i love you,
I really really do.
I wanna be wif u,
Be with u for all eternity.
Stay wif me,hold me tight
never let me go.
Dun ever leave me.
dun leave me behind!
I really cant lose you.
I dun wanna lose u."
Is Pride tat important?
i guess it is to me.
A word forever does not appear in the dictionary,
The word forever u dun believe neither do i.
But i hope u'll learn to believe the word eternity.
A eternity for you and me !
At least tats wad i hope for.
isnt a blog a place u say everything out?
hmmmm wanted to blog since last nite..
but kept thinking if i should blog..
LOL. guess a blog isnt as useful afterall..
But guess i'll still blog.. =))
Everyone seems to be rushing me to get a job.
I wan to work too.
My pocket is gonna be empty soon. (big fat hole)
But i guess the same thot keep appearing in my head.
A fear tat once i start working,
i might not have time to spent wif u.
A fear tat we might even drift.
A fear tat new pp or pp u once like comes into ur life.
A fear tat i might jus lose u.
Guess im not as confident as before.
Is there anything tat im lack of?
Is there anything tat i lose?
Is there anything tat i cant learn?
I used to think my the other half is not gd enuf for me.
But when it comes to u,
Why do i feel im not gd enuf?
Is it really im not gd enuf?
or is it the lack of confident?
*confident confident come back soon* >.<
Many a times i wish,
I wish i had the courage to shout it out loud,
or even whisper it into ur ears.
"Baby i love you,
I really really do.
I wanna be wif u,
Be with u for all eternity.
Stay wif me,hold me tight
never let me go.
Dun ever leave me.
dun leave me behind!
I really cant lose you.
I dun wanna lose u."
Is Pride tat important?
i guess it is to me.
A word forever does not appear in the dictionary,
The word forever u dun believe neither do i.
But i hope u'll learn to believe the word eternity.
A eternity for you and me !
At least tats wad i hope for.
``Bonggz~
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Sunday, July 22, 2007 |
Looking younger every minute.
Is it a good thing? haha
Pictures to update.
Muacks~
I Smile Tat i hate. -.-
Look So Young rite?
Dimples!
Baby Says I look like undead.
Do We Look Like Students?
We're Decent.Well at least i am. =X
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Recently baby is addicted to the song "beautiful girl"
haha.. is a nice song thou.
Actually im addicted to the song too =X
Started watching my anime again.
BLEACH BLEACH BLEACH!
Addiction slowly creeping up again.
I wanna watch till end of series.
100 over episode only la.
Think iim gonna quit smoking aready.
At least i think i will.
hopefully *Close eyes Pray Hard*
Maybe on occasions only den will smoke. =X
Buying A new specs in ard 4 more days.
Mummy says she will pay.
"YES KIO TIO" hohoho..
Baby doing her homework?
article? LOL
She jus say she wanna kill herself. LOL
I Miss Her.
And I really do.
I swear i speak no lies.
And of cuz I do love her too.
Muacks! ~
``Bonggz~
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Friday, July 20, 2007 |
*Clearing the cobwebs*
Boring boring life.
Meeting baby almost everyday.
Wonder will she get bored of meeting me =X LOLS
Woke up early today to bathe.
But ended up slping till 1 Plus..!!
Cuz of my Lazy Piggy Dear!!
Send her to sch.
den got nth to do..
Ended up at hme again.. LOL
Think should start working soon..
Gg to be Broke le.. !!!
Met baby after her sch ended.
Send her to Red Hill.
To do her project.!
Tat ger ar! Forever so last minute..
Den go home !! OMG..
My life really getting a lil boring le right?
But still enjoy every moment wif her.. =X
Bread intro me Job..!!
MCDONALD'S TELEPONE OPERATOR.. LOL
cute right..!! but might really go work..
Pay is not bad..And there is nite shift.. LOL
Nid to yang my baby ! haha..
so nid to get a job soon le.. T_T
Getting use to my slacking life.. =X opps
Tears seems to be dropping from ur eyes almost everyday.
Am i Tat bad?
Is saddness and disappoint all i give you? hmm..
Guess old habits die hard. hai
Trying not to disappoint u anymore.
Wanting to see u smile every minute.
Craving for u every Single Second.
Moments With u anot, I still miss you!
``Bonggz~
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Saturday, July 07, 2007 |
is it tat hard to trust me?
is it tat hard to believe me?
Do u actually how much u mean to me?
Do u actually know how much i've fallen for u?
A past which i prefer kept secret.
A past tat i couldnt rmb.
An obsolete memory.
I couldnt believe i was like tat in the past.
If not for wad eyes could see,
Seeing is Believing.
I've got no choice but to accept my past.
I dun like her anymore.
Who i really wan now is obvious to all.
Who i really care for i believe u know it.
Who i nid in my life?
I guess i really nid u in my life.
An important part i can nv let go.
Is trust tat hard to earn?
Is learning to believe me all tat hard?
Have i changed or am i self deceiving?
I all the while thot i have been faithful.
I all the while thot i jus plainly really love u.
Can't u feel it? or mayb u dun.
Maybe everyone ard me is lying.
Lying to me, saying tat i've change.
Well, im used to it already.
Everyone dun trust me.
Parents and all.
Perharps i jus muz get use to it.
Is ok. I'll still go on.
I'm ok, Dont worry. I'll still smile again.
Drowning in my own tears,
Will u still save me anymore?
Drinkin up my sorrow,
Will u still stop me, Will u still care?
Smoking the pain away,
Will the pain still be there tmr?
My confidence tat seem so crush.
I thot tat everything was so right.
I guess i was wrong.
Own Part thinking i guess.
I thot i was finally closer to owning u.
But still at tis moment,
I feel i could lose u any moment.
Will u still come tonite?
Will u still be there for me tmr?
Fcuk! Where have my confidence gone to?
I used to believe i live for myself.
But it seems like im more & more revolve ard u.
I'm sry seems like the only word i can say.
Lost for words, In a world of confusion.
I'm confuse, Till i dunno where i stand.
Do u love me? Or is it juz a liking? a crush?
I'm sry i'm sry i'm sry!
Im not doubting u.
But for the first time im doubting myself.
Why have i become like tat?
I've change, I've really change.
haven't i?
I know wad is sad, I know wad is pain.
Emotionless was wad i used to be.
Wad so good bout have emotions.?
To feel hurt? Pain? Sad?
Omg! i dun like having any emotions.
To see u've cried, To know tat i've hurt u.
Lead me to tears.
Why? why is the only question.
I'll cry when i see u cry?
Emotions i thot i only felt when i was a kid.
Am i a kid all over again?
Feeling helpless, not knowing wad to do.
Everything i did at the moment seems wrong.
Felt the pain u're feeling.
Didnt mean to hurt u. But still, im sry!!
baby dun keep anything from me.
Tell me how u feel,
Tell me wad u'r thinking,
Tell me wad u wan.
I cant predict, i dun wanna guess.
I dun wan history to repeat.
I dun wanna feel like this anymore.
I dun wanna feel helpless anymore.
Let me be there for u. Ups or downs.
I'm sry tat i smoke and drink today.
I jus nid to chill a lil.
I'm sry i break my promise.
``Bonggz~
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Friday, July 06, 2007 |
Many things happen recently.
Many happy moments & moments of war.
is it a good thing having so many couple in the group?
conflicts and misunderstanding seems inevitable.
everything seems so perfect.
All seem to get along fine.
But attitude seems hard to control.
throwing sacarstic remarks at each other.
hoping each other back down first?
will giving in solve the prob?
but at least now we're back in a group.
A perfect 3 couple group.
Was msging baby half way,
guess she fallen aslp.. >.<
My lil miss piggy!! getting piggier by the days.
Realising u mean the world to me,
Every emotions u change, my emotion changes too.
When i see u smile, no matter how angry i can smile.
When i see u tear, it bring tears to my eyes.
Afraid to make u angry.
Afraid i might lose u 1 day.
Is tat how being in love is all about?
Den i guess this time i've really fallen.
U're my fantasy u're my dream.
I cant promise heaven,
But i'll do wad i can do jus to make u smile.
I'll try every ways nv to upset u.
I'll always be here for u, Ups or downs.
A listening ear, A shoulder to lean on.
Sharing ur problems & burdens.
Staying by ur side always.
Till the day u ask me to go,
I'll never leave.
``Bonggz~