Monday, August 27, 2007
how does good looks come about?
i once was ugly, i think.
but i somehow manage to work my way up till today.
but i dun seem to be able to get any better.
have a reach my limit?
guess maybe i was born ugly.
dun seem to be able to improve anymore. haiz
wad the first impression u set on a person.
*hair
*clothes
*looks
*complexion
omg think i dun have any hur? LOLS.
getting uglier by the days.
wonder how i look 10yrs from now. -.-"
I've lost.
``Bonggz~
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Saturday, August 25, 2007 |
*Numb*
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*unposted*
``Bonggz~
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Sunday, August 19, 2007 |
Is it jus im over-sensitive?
Jealousy or envy ?
i guess she is jus one plain lucky person.
i try and try,
i try so hard.
is it so hard to keep up?
How come she even had such treatment?
or is it cuz she is the first ger?
wad is there in her?
which part of me do i lose to her?
Looks? char? attitude? behaviour?
can someone pls enlighten me?
i cant bring myself to like her,
neither do detest or hate her to the core.
maybe to me, she is jus a rival.
the person whom i'll compare my everything to.
i jus wanna win in everything.
well, im jus a bad loser; A sore loser.
i cant lose. i dun wan to.
but At times i do wonder,
have i actually lost?
Many questions running tru my head.
dunno how to get an ans.
aimlessly guessing and assuming.
shutting positive thots out.
leaving myself to drown in my own negative thots.
Guess the feeling of being loved is always nicer den loving someone.
jealous i might be,
A feeling im still trying to surpress.
I'll learn how to control it one day.
Slowly getting a hang of it.
will u think tat im petty making a fuss out of nth?
guess u might slowly get irritated.
sometimes i really jus dunno wad to say,
how to react or wad to do.
all i could do was to sit there and stone.
afraid after u knowing my reaction u might not be so honest,
as u think it might hurt me.
But i rather u be honest and not hide.
tats why i choose to hide my feelings instead.
baby, i dun mean to keep or hide my feelings from u.
but there are times when is hard to express,
words jus cant come out.
it seems to leave me speechless.
many thots run tru my head.
flashbacks of words tat i heard and read.
trying to find the best reaction to react.
but in the end all i could say was.
"dun worry baby, im ok"
sorry if i really cant be honest to tell u how i feel at tat very moment.
but im sure i'll find other ways to let u know,
wad im thinking or how im feeling.
maybe not at tat very moment,
but u'll get to know bout it.
sooner or ltr. =)
cuz i dun wanna hide anything from u.
and i wont hide anything.
``Bonggz~
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Friday, August 10, 2007 |
Hello hello, anyone there? lol
been long since i last blog. >.<
muhahahha !!
Haven been hme very often,
Been staying out either whole nite
or at baby's hse.. =)
Many things happen lately.
happy , sad , angry ,du lan
all kinds of emotions. =.="
Jus last nite,
kena tio gek by keagan!!
wanted to go over to janice hse wif niu,
but tat idiot jus wont allow.
Understanding he say he is.
but i doubt anyone sees it in him.
Dota his life,
thinking bout it.
playing it !
might as well live wif it. -.-
ARghghgGhg the thot of him still pisses me off.
Trying to tell him one thing,
he says another thing !! omg !
no wonder niu say,
"lang gong dang lu gong sai,
lang jia gu ba lu jia gu chee bye"
muhaHAhaaHA
But well i guess me and him, we're ok le.
He say he wanted buy me yan yan.
MuHAhaAha ! but too bad.
Once we're ok, they started war again. -.-
Ended up we didnt go gaming afterall !
wad a waste of time.
Anyway have been eatin quite alot recently!
Fatter and fatter im becoming ! >.<
But my latest addiction is
" TISSUE PRATA "
I jus cant get enuf of it.
And my drink of all time is
" MILO "
And i jus cant stop eating chilli. -.-
Burning a hole in my stomach >.<
Feeling the spicy rush to my stomach.
Arrhghg. so uncomfortabel, but i like it
Bleax ! =P
Baby have been rushing tru all her last min work.
She jus nv learn. -.-
Ended up burning mid nite oil to complete everything.
Exams for her is ard the corner.
Will she still be slacking? lol
*wondering how hardworking will she be* LOL
Seeing her so tired very xin tong de leh..
tat ben dan !! always so last min !!
Muz rush her to do her things earlier next time.
haiyo poor baby, have been slping very lil recently.
Think tonite she will KO early ! lala..
``Bonggz~